As a second semester senior who has recently finished all of her college applications, I expected to be free. I planned on reading books for my own amusement, watching lots of movies, and just lazying around. But I'm still waiting for this to happen, though I am pretty sure that it never will. My list of things to do is growing by the minute while my inspiration to do them is pretty much non-existant, hence my lack of freedom right now.
It seems that I am suffering from a condition where it is almost impossible to do homework at home, and even when I do, it takes me infinitely longer to do because I am so distracted. Then after spending many long hours on homework that should really take me almost no time to do (considering the free time I have at school with Uni period and free periods), I have to work on things like scholarships which brings me down even more. Writing scholarship essays is not fun because first of all, it is more writing, and second of all, browsing college websites and seeing the opportunities and freedom available makes me want to graduate even more which makes it harder to stay motivated enough to do homework.
I've come to the conclusion that the status of "second semester senior" means absolutely nothing. You are always going to have work, and the more you fight it, the harder it gets. My advice to any underclassmen reading this: do not waste winter break! Finish your college applications early and start scholarship applications right after that. If you take a break, even a couple of days, the work will never end! Maybe if you finish everything college related over break you won't be in the predicament that I am in, and instead you can enjoy your "second semester senior" status.
I totally agree, Sheela. There's so much writing to do after applying to colleges. It's rather frustrating. I think it's alright to procrastinate and enjoy life a little even during the long application process, but I still regret not doing *more* work over breaks so that I have less work now.
ReplyDeleteBut hey, there's still four months of second semester senioritis to look forward to. Even if it takes three months to finish scholarships and pick schools, we'll still have a whole month of slacking off left before we reach another *three* months of.. dare I say it.. SUMMER! Then we're off to college. Whoop.
It was so nice to read this and feel less alone. Everything you described- the lack of motivation, being easily distracted- definitely resounded with me. One of the hardest things for me to come to terms with this semester (and still is at times) is that the work doesn't stop and won't (like you wrote). Very well written :)
ReplyDeleteGreat first post! Procrastination definitely leads to stress, and the second-semester senior may be one of the categories of human being most vulnerable to it. Good luck getting your stuff done so you can have some guilt-free downtime.
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